I sat up all night waiting for Radiohead pre-sale tickets, which of course didn't go up until 8am -- a time I would have been awake anyway.
In the intermin between the fifteen hourly vigils over at W.A.S.T.E., I watched every episode of Life on Mars apart from the finale and attempted to write a reaction post to Ashes to Ashes, which I caught up on this weekend. The reaction post turned into something of an essay, which terrified me and made me wonder if I should construct a thesis statement, which terrifed me even more. (Everyone knows thesis statements don't belong in fandom.) So I gave up on that to watch more Life on Mars and cry for a moment over a picture of Thom Yorke (it was
this one if you're curious) and research punctuation on Wikipedia. (Did you know curly brackets are called flower brackets in India?)
There almost doesn't seem to be a point to watching the episodes anymore. I've seen them so many times I can't even think up a way to describe what it feels like to watch them now. It's like breathing, except perhaps underwater, where the bubbles still catch my attention but I forget now that I'm breathing oxygen. Or something.
The finale would solve this dilema, as it would make me go back to watch everything again searching for little clues of foreshowing, but my mind seems to have formed a Second Coming complex about it: I think I will watch it in the near future but in reality, it could be 2000 years from now that I actually see it, give or take a few decades.
It makes me miss Ashes to Ashes, which made a good substitute for Life on Mars cravings. Ashes to Ashes is the methadone to Life on Mars' heroin-like addictive properties. And yes, I did just compare a television programme to both Jesus and a highly illegal drug.
The state of this entry reflects well what Radiohead does to my brain.